Love me in a minute and a half.

I've made many new friends. Good friends. Idk , love them :)

And, recently, I've met a new guy. Infatuation? He's too sweet sometimes.

Hi my abandoned livejournal.

These few days, I've been feeling really upset again. Is it because it's the end of the month again, or is it troubles with valid reasons? I don't know. Recently, I've been feeling very L___ O__.

I don't know. Going over to Jiekai's house soon to ton the night :) Excited. Didn't see him for a very long time alr. Whee.
 

I don't know why, I can't seem to forget you.

Currently at Lerler's house now.

Yes, I feel happy now!

I swear I'm gonna get over him soon :)
Yay. Love so many people right now.

I'm determined to forget him soonsoonsoon:)

Hey, I'm at his house now.

I don't know why, I always feel a sense of loss whenever he's not around. I just feel so empty. After reading Naomi & Billy's blog, I felt so upset for them. If I could cry, I would. The aircon is making my eyes very dry.

I can only say that, Cherish something before it's gone. I'm super jealous that she can always write letters for you, I'm super jealous that , whoever's gotten your heart.

 

Are you upset that they broke up? Why?
And also, why did you get so drunk that night? (According to the letter).. I really don'tknow what to do. I know, deep inside your heart, there's surely someone.. 4 girls, only one to beat the rest .
Who's the other 2 girls ? ...

I'm really really jealous,
What should I do when you're not around?

I tell myself, it's enough that I can see you, slack with you and stuff . And I feel lucky enough, but I just want more ..

You're so cute today y'knw.

I cant believe I actually didn't saw that priceless moment. Wished I could've seen it, but ... I guess if I was there, I would probably smack Huiting up down left right :/

Anw, I LUV HUITING&PEIWEN:D
Sisterhood ♥

Hmm, this post will just be about my memories with him yea. :)
I don't mind writing down, cause he knows who he is already.

Still, what did you mean by 50%? Would it go up, or would it go down?
Would I still be the one, will we still patch?

16 feburary 2008, Saturday.
That day, I went to Eunos inter, intending to go out with Zhaohua, Mengyang, Nicholas and Linus. I went Eunos inter early, so Zhaohua suggested that I go to her house first, so that I won't wait too long alone. So I agreed, and walked over to her house. Her dad gave me a $10 angbao, then we went off to meet Linus shortly after..

Went to tmall, and queued for the tickets to Jumper. Then, for some unknown reason, I smsed you, and smsed you something about ciggs, selling for $5. Then, you asked where I was. That time, I was currently in the movie. I told you tamp, and you told me you was at bugis, and said you wanted to come down to find me. I didn't want you to, at first, because I didn't want you to travel so far. But you said it was okay, and after my movie, I met you with Zhaohua & co., at CS. I remember, seeing Joshua & his friends there too. I asked Zhaohua to come with me to watch movie with you,but she didn't want because of Joshua.

So, me, you and William bought tickets for P.S. I love you. You held my hand throughout in the movie, I was a little surprised, but contented. I didn't fall for you that time, yet. After the movie, we wanted to watch, L -Change th world, but there wasn't any 7pm tickets, and I couldn't make it for the midnight show, so, nevermind.
We went to the toilet, and then went to the staircase, as you 2 wanted to smoke. I remember you telling William your mother bought for you Marlboro Ice Mint (?).

Then we headed out. William had to go, and he left the two of us there. We walked around tmall, and you asked where I wanted to go. At first, I couldn't recall, but then after awhile, I remembered I wanted to go to the beach.
So, we cabbed to Ecp. During the ride there, you were still holding my hand. And you smsed me, to be your girl'f. I replied, "Why can't you just say it out?" And you said something like, because there's an uncle infront of us. It made me laugh. Then I agreed to be yours. I remember the hour, but not the exact timing. It was around 7.1x plus.

We sat at the rocks, and you hugged me. Then, we walked all the way to Pit E55 , and I remember it was very far from where we were. Finally we reached there around 8, and I sat there, staring at you. 8.30pm, I had to leave. You left with me. We walked all the way to CHIJ Katong Convent, and in the end, gave up on walking & taking the bus, and hailed a cab.

Before leaving, I gave you a kiss on the cheek. Then I left. I reached home around 9.15pm that night, when I was supposed to be home at 9pm.

17 February 2008, Sunday.
I went to the bedok reservoir coffeeshop, with you, Sinyi & Feon. We slacked there with some other people, then we left for Nicki's house. Yinyi was there, and I remember thinking he was Nicki's brother. Around 5pm, went to Bugis with you, Sinyi, Dexter, Yinyi & Nicki. Nicki's mother fetched us there, and I was sitting on your lap, due to the amount of space.

Reached there, we walkwalked around OG, and many places.. I reached home late again that night.

18 February 2008, Monday.
School-ed, then we had House meeting that day. No one was to leave until the house meetings were over. But all of us, didn't want to attend. So we climbed out of the school. You were supposed to have step-up that day, but you skipped 'cuz of me. Though, you probably didn't want to go as well.

You, Feon, Sinyi, Dorothy, are the only people who I remember. Of course, there was alot more people. It was my first time climbing the gate, and I got several cuts. On my hands and legs. Then, we went up a block to slack. Then if I wasn't wrong, Yiling and Audrey came down as well. They were sick, I think?

After the house meeting, a few people went to school to get MP, as they had a daiji to settle. Many things happened, and we all went off. Slacked at mama , then i had to go home. That day, you didn't sent me home, because you went don'tknow where with weexin they all. But, I remember them forcing us to kiss.. And after you left, i don't know why i felt a sense of loss ...

19 February 2008, Tuesday.
I didn't go to school. I went to mama to meet you, Royce & Jared(sp). Then, the 3 of us, including Yinyi who came later, went to the market to buy cigg. Then we went up a void deck to slack. 8plus, we went to Bedok town's mac, and then Royce & Jared went to school. The 3 of us, me, you and Yinyi, went to 2nd mama to slack. I remember Yinyi being depressed, and smoked and c____. I tore out a piece of paper from my student handbook, and wrote a message, and passed it to Yinyi.

Wayhei came, then Luke called you to ask where you were. Then Luke, Sinyi and Weiheng came, but they got caught by Mr Raj, and Mr Raj wanted a letter, explaining why they skipped school, when they only skipped Assembly. We slacked, then went to the coffeeshop again to slack. Went Eunos cc to meet Dexter & friend, and they all played ball. You lied on my lap, and I was watching Weixin draw. Then, you, Sinyi, Dexter and I went to mac. Sat awhile, then we all sat 21.
You sent me home, and when we alighted the bus, Sinyi & Dexter sat together immediately. We laughed, and walked. We stopped at block 17, went up the staircase, as you wanted to smoke.

I accompanied you as I had the time, then you sent me home after that.
And this day, was the day when I really fell for you, hard.

20 February 2008, Wednesday.
I've forgotten what happened, ...

Skipped to, 22 February 2008, Friday.
I've also forgotten what really happened, I guess, I went to band that day. I reached home, ate, bathed, and went to sleep,
All the way til' 9plus pm. I checked my messages, and I saw one from you, requesting for a breakup, saying it's cause you didn't think you were a good boy'f and stuff.

But it was your choice, and I love you, so I said, okay. I was heartbroken. I went out to the living room, and CherylW & my sister was there. I messaged a few people that I've broken up with you. Then you smsed me, asked me, if I truely, really, loved you. I replied a yes. Then you asked for a patch, and said you were just in a bad mood. Did you guess, how happy I was? I guess you didn't realise, because you weren't there. Before, my face was a mask, fake smiling and holding in all tears, as I didn't want to cry out. But after, I broke into a grin. I could just simply have jumped off my building.

23 February 2008, Saturday.
You smsed me, asked me not to meet first, as your friend cancelled out on you. But still, we met up around 10.5x am. You waited for me at my staircase, then we bussed to petal, and you bought cigg. We went to numerous blocks(staircases). I remembered, every kiss, every hug you gave me. No matter if you're just playing around with me; I just enjoyed being with you. Around 12plus, we bussed to Damai. I went to buy drinks, and I saw Shihui. Afterwards, we went to mama to slack, and waited for Dorothy & Willy(Weili) to come down, before heading to sk. You all went to play lan, while I sat outside, msging, eating.

Then, we went reservoir to find Dorothy & Jeremy. Slacked, and went back to sk. Around 4.25pm, you sent me home.
Well, guess what. It was my first week being with you.

24 February 2008, Sunday.
I went to tuition, and went out with Family after that, to Citylink.
I didn't know why, I was feeling very low. I smsed you,

me: ): i miss you ):
you: lols. i miss you too . .
me: whad you doing? ._.
you: doing sex. lol
me: -.- happy doing then -.-
you: okay -.-

Exactly what was exchanged between us. I was feeling even more depressed, and msged Mengyang. He managed to make me feel a lil' better though.

That night, we broke up. At 10.53pm, ...

And after very long, ...

August 4th 2008, Monday.
That day, I had oral after school. After oral, went to bubblet with Kengyun & Sophia. Then, I was msging you. And thn I confessed that I still liked you, broke up with Mengyang, and patched back with you. I remember what you told me,
" wo men ke yi hui dao guo qu ma? "
That's what you said to me. In chinese letterings, of course. And of course, I said okay. I loved you too much. It was the 5th month, and the 19th day, and I still couldn't forget you. And it was the 5th month, 19th day, that we were back tgt again.

August 5th 2008, Tuesday.
Nothing much today, I didn't meet you. I went East point with Claire, Wanxin, Dionne, Qianhui and Cherlyn to eat sakae.

August 6th 2008, Wednesday.
After school, walked Eileen to her house with Claire, then we went to Bedok inter. Then, I bused to sk to meet you & Jeremy. Sinyi came not long after, then you waited for 21 with me, and waited for me to get up the bus, while you went home in another bus ..

That night, we broke up ...

I don't wait for people with a motive; I wait because I really want to.

It was such a confusing, depressing day today. About 10 or lesser sticks per day, has become my habit, in such a short period of time. It's starting to be my habit, to have to _____ at least once a day.

I'm craving for your company. I don't understand, why, after so long, I still have not gotten over you.

Maybe, maybe not. Contradicting.

I wonder where you are every day. Every night I miss your smiles, laughters, warmth. Everyone I've ever been with, seemed like just an object, to make me forget you. I don't know what I did wrong. You always makes me wonder, Could we have lasted, if... Many different questions would make me start thinking in ways I've never done before.

You act like you're so concerned with me, with my wellbeing, my everything. But do you really? Or are you just giving me false hopes again, like how you did last year. I want to be the girl who's unique in your eyes. I want to be the girl that you would never get sick of. I want to be someone, who's very important in your eyes.

 

I'll be saying, I'm not your toy, 'cause you were part of my game all along.
I'll be lying to myself, if I ever said I've forgotten you completely. You're like the air I breathe. I need you so much, that you would never know.

You treat me just like another passing girl. Maybe just a lil' closer then the rest, but also maybe, I'm just some immatured, annoying girl who's always irritating you, & getting what we both wants;

You've got me high on you, and I don't know when I can quit.
You're my sweetest, addictive, dangerous, fatal drug.

Gosh, I'm feeling anxious!! :(

Ong Kae Uei, omigoshhhhhh!
I'm so gonna win my mac student meal ! :B

Much loves,

Gosh, I didn't post for such a long time already.

 

If anyone wants updates , it's on my blog :)
http://crepuscularomance.blogspot.com :B

I've nothing much to update about , hehheh . I don't like winter , that's all :D

Yesterday, went out in the end!

Was eating dinner half way, and then received call & smses from Macclair, asking me to go down, for some reason -.-" So, I finished up my dinner, and slowly got ready. No make ups. ZOMG.

Waited for bus, and saw Jovina & friend .. and then suddenly, BOOM! Darryl's face was infront of me -.-" , scared the shxt outta me! Then slowly, I saw Willard, Linus & Jared -.-

Played & then 60 came, me & Willard boarded. Alighted @ Tenaga and took 65. Guesss what?! There was a couple,  fucking/ oral-ing at the back seat. I didn't actually see it, but can hear one. Ji swey yi xia :( Waited for Macclair & Bi at the control station for 17minutes. Snoree :/ 291-ed to 800+, and walkwalk. Went 874A to find Ben brother & Sengsoon :)

And then, around 10pm, went to the meeting place (cause Ben & Sengsoon selling ice cream mah!), which was at, 733? If I'm not wrong. Laughs. Subsequently, went to the roadside, to cab. Guess we cabbed to? Geylang. Lol -.-"

Went to eat duck rice ( them, ) while I ate the, don't know what noodle :l Bi was damn -.-, he told me, they went there to eat duck rice, while I went there to eat noodles.

After eating, walkwalk .. Then bussed to Pasir ris @ around 12.30am . Went Sengsoon's house, bathed & then we went down. Bi & Macclair went ghost tower, while Ben, Sengsoon & I went to the carpark on top @ Ehub. Asked Ben to help me buy popcorn & drink :/ In the end, half of my drink, is they drink -_-" I ate the popcorn until half, then full alrd. :/

The security guard chased us off, and we sat at the entrance. Sim Sengsoon (sss) is damn entertaining pls, laughs. Then, Bi & Macclair came. Slacked while they thought of something entertaining & interesting to do.

 

In the end, went up the carpak again -.- , LOL. Got nice view, :B . And then, went McDonald's to eat breakfast. And off to bus stop, as Bi needed & wanted to go home. So we all headed home. Shared cab with Ben & Bi.

Reached home, slept !

This's my second account in Livej :)
I've deleted most posts on my first account, leaving only the first post, as it's mostly emotional stuff. Yeah.

So, there's nothing much I can say. Hahaha. I love bitching about random people, ohmygodz. Just bitched some chick named Jennifer Teo. Check it out @ my blog :O
http://twentytwothree.blogspot.com
April 11's post :)

I'm so bored, cancelled more or less all appointments for today; Eileen's birthday, I'm not going. As they went to Escape, & I didn't have much cash with me. Geylang /Pasir ris with Bi, Ben, Macclair & Sengsoon trip, I also cancelled.

I've got the (second) worst cramps ever :( Gosh, I can't even drink cold water. One sip, and the cramps come back.

I'm still so very very emotional now, guess I should stop already. Byebye :)